sometimes

I can't believe we have made it this far. To find each other randomly and then grow in love so quickly. To know each other soul even tho you know nothing about each other. To know that I will always love you no matter what. Even if we part. I pray we never part. I just want God to bless you. To order your steps. And my fear of never meeting you on person has come and gone and your embrace was like a fresh breath of winter air. And there was magic in your eyes. And all I do is think of you and cry in praise thanking the higher powers that I found you. And we are moving soo slow. And this is just what I need. Sometimes I am afraid my ambition will keep us apart and we will ever be together. But for almost a year now we have been together loving, smiling, laughing, praying, and we grow stronger. Sometimes I think a love this deep will cause destruction. Honestly I m am grateful for your everything. I should be working but I can;t. I love you too much to concentrate on anything not directly related to you. You know just how to handle me. You are so kind and thoughtful and you get me without me feeling insecure about my random crazy thought or lame jokes. I hope I am making you happy. I hope you are proud. I am still growing. Sometimes I just think of you. I think of the times we first made love. lol. I think of rolling over and seeing you greet me with a smile. I think of the times when i wanted to never call you r see you again but the thought of not going next to sleep with you is never worth it. Sometimes to call my name in your sleep. and I cry. Sometimes you inspire me to love harder. and I cry. Just know that i will love you always if you would like me to. And no one wanted us to win. They still hope we fail. Its like the more they hate the more we grow. And sometimes my insides smile at the thought of your locks falling in you face. And Sometimes I cry when I'm working on a project and you help me find clarity. You are divine. I don't care what you say. Your like the Holy grail which i discovered. And sometimes I can't believe you love me so deeply..............